You’ve seen the ultrasound, and the photos of my giant belly. But why no post yet? Truth be told, I’ve been feeling a bit superstitious, and haven’t felt ready to commit my thoughts about the pregnancy to paper (so to speak) until I felt confident I wouldn’t jinx my condition.
Silly, I know, especially coming from an agnostic skeptic like me. But since I started feeling the baby move about 3 weeks ago, I’ve really relaxed. To be honest, it didn’t feel quite real until the moment I felt that first fluttery movement (despite the ultrasounds and nice round belly).
Contrary to what I’ve been told, the movement did not feel like butterflies or gas. LOL! It felt just like a baby moving inside of my body–there is absolutely no other bodily sensation I can compare the feeling to that would even come close to being accurate, or come close to capturing the wonderful, mind-blowing, yet perfectly comfortable and natural, sensation. As the baby gets bigger, the movements get more pronounced, and lately, I’m pretty sure I know when the baby is rolling over vs. poking and kicking.
The other day, I ordered some little side-snap shirts for the baby to wear home from the hospital and during the first week or so–you see, the thought of smooshing that soft little head through the neck of a little shirt makes me weak in the knees, so I bought these little shirts–and when I received the box at work, I shut my office door, took one out of the package, and started to weep! For the first time, I could really imagine holding our baby and dressing him for the ride home.
As I write this, it occurs to me that he won’t be coming home for the first time. He’s been home the whole pregnancy. We just have to go to the hospital to spring him from the hooch.
More later!
Hi- stumbled upon your blog through a search. Congrats on your pregnancy! I love how you wrote how your baby *is* home already. Sounds like a true family to me.